Mathophobia?

  About five years ago, mathophobia entered my life.  It is the only subject I struggle with and I have been holding back from it.  I remember I was in the tenth grade and I was not understanding the new material.  Everything kept building up and I became more and more stressed.  Luckily I made it through to the eleventh grade math (Math B).  I passed eleventh grade math, by one point! I struggled...terribly. My junior year I was going to math labs, receiving help from friends.  I even felt more discouraged because I had a terrible teacher.  Let's just say, he resigned, but would have been fired.  I had two other math teachers that same year, a teacher would come and go.  I never felt comfortable with that course and it was never steady.  

   I took an online math course last semester, Math 100.  I needed to refresh my memory and re-learn how to do many things.  I found it very helpful and it prepared me for an upcoming math course, Math 107.  I will be honest, I am not thrilled I have to do another math course again this semester, but it is an important requirement.  I'm taking a different approach this time around.  I am going to have a fresh start and attempt to learn this math to the best of my ability.  I want to succeed. I have never failed a course in my life and I always get A's and B's.  This is one course I will have to spend more time on.

    In class recently, everyone took a quiz that would tell them if they had mathophobia or not.  According to my score, I was in the category for mathophobia.  I knew I had it before I even took the quiz as I've mentioned above.  I get nervous when I have to take a quiz or test, and nerves cause loss of memory! So this semester, I plan to take many notes, focus, study, and ask questions.  I want to do well and be prepared for what is to come.  I don't want to be one of those teacher's that show children I hate math.  I will pass that point and continue to move forward.  I think that every person has the capability to succeed.  Math comes easier to others which I find is unfair by the way!  But oh well.  I will be someone who needs to spend extra time, have more examples, and study.  Like I said before, I am going to have a fresh start.